often times......

Life is a series of april showers and northeasterns, yet the rain rarely ceases to stop. The longer i exist the more and more i realize of what i do not know and comprehend. i have probably read more books than half my generation yet always seem to be lacking in some dynamic or another.

I often seek Jesus just to lessen the pain and "groaning" that this life brings, yet he is so much more than a simple Tylenol, popped at my convenience. My life follows a typical season, just as the weather does. It is not really a roller coaster, yet gliding hills that roll throughout my journey to get to where i am going, wherever that may be.

Trusting the Lord in all occasions has to be one of the most difficult things that a man can accomplish. It requires patience and love, and once again, I seem to be lacking. lets put away the cups and balloons, for this isnt a pity party, yet a true understanding of where i, as a man, lack. naturally, i despise the fact that i lack in anything. I should be able to advance my causes on my own and learn enough to gain the whole world. yeah, it def doesnt work out like that.